So the past few weeks have been absolutely miserable for me. School has been frustrating. I was really worried about my grade and I don't want this semester to end like last semester. We have been running a group in class and mine didn't go so well. I was so nervous that I wasn't able to control the group. Anyway..it was pretty much a disaster.
I had a major melt down last week and was considering doing something else. But luckily my husband calmed me down and the next day while I was at work he paged Jody (she is the recreational therapist that made we want to be a part of this profession). She came and talked with me and she reassured me that I can do this and she has faith in me.
So I set up a meeting with my teacher so I could talk to her. I was worried that she had lost faith in me that I wouldn't be able to do this. We had a good talk and she said to me that I don't have to get straight A's to be a damn good therapist. She said she didn't get the greatest grades in school either.
I am not good a school. I haven't been for a long time. But I think if I can get out of school and get into the profession I will be ok. I learn so much better by doing it.
This is very hard for me to talk about because I don't want to look or feel stupid because I don't get the greatest grades. But I know that I am smart and I don't need good grades to prove that. I have a lot on my plate and sometimes I have a hard time balancing everything. I mean you should see my house when I have school work to do. ;)
Anyway...so I learned that I can do this and one day I will be a recreational therapist. It is what I want to do and I am going to love every minute of it. It might just take me a little longer to get there but I am ok with that.
Thank you to everyone that has supported me and helped me through these past couple weeks.