Let's just start this blog out with a..WHAT THE WHAT!!! Ok. That is better. This phrase always makes me smile because every time I say it, I can see my 3 year old niece repeating it with her cute little voice. A smile is definitely what I need right now.
Now to get to the reason for the what the what. I knew pregnancy was going to be scary. I've seen most everything that can go wrong with a pregnancy and most everything that can go well with a pregnancy. BUT it is a totally different world when it is actually you. I know I am supposed to try and stay calm and relaxed through this thing but I have no idea how anyone can do that through their first pregnancy. I notice every cramp, every ache, every little thing that my body does. I love the reassurance I get from family, friends and my doctor that it is all normal stuff that should be going on during pregnancy. Whew!
But then Sunday happened. Most women's fear!! I saw blood! What the what!!! I had heard it is normal to spot and such but this was more than what I would think spotting would look like. I panicked, called my husband upstairs and asked him what we should do. His first response was to go to the hospital. (Side note: This is not at all what I had planned for the night. Adam had just picked up Nikki from the airport. We had dinner and then planned on watching a movie or play a game. I was so grateful that Nikki came to the hospital with us even though I felt terrible. Earlier that evening, she was saying that she wished she could be here for us more so I guess she got her wish!)
Anyway...so we headed off to the ER. (Another side note: Adam reminded me that I have been to the ER more times than he has since we got married. It is kind of ironic and funny.) We got settled in to our room and everyone was very attentive and helpful. It was probably the best ER visit I've ever had. They checked me and decided that the baby was ok and that I was probably bleeding from a procedure I had earlier that week. They did check baby to make sure it was doing ok and that I wasn't having an ectopic pregnancy as well. Baby looked great which was a huge relief!
I am sure that this is the first of many scary things that will happen during this pregnancy since I am only 8 weeks into it. I am glad that we got this over with and that everything is ok. I am still a little nervous and shook up from it and I hope that I can get out of this funk soon. I guess I am more worried because of all the obstacles we have gone through to get to this point. I am trying to relax and not stress when I can.
We have another appointment in the beginning of May. It will be nice to talk to my doctor and make sure everything is still going well. We are so blessed to have this opportunity to have one of Heavenly Father's little spirit children. I am amazed that I have this opportunity to be a mommy and for Adam to be a daddy. Thanks to all those who have constantly prayed and been a support to us!
About the mommy: Name: Christine Age: 26 Is this the first child?: Yes!
About the daddy: Name: Adam Age: 28 Is this the first child?: Yes!
Finding out:What day did you find out you were pregnant?: March 23, 2013
How did you feel when you found out?: I was freaking out because I cheated and didn't wait the two weeks like I was supposed to! I didn't believe it at first and took several more tests!
Who was with you?: Adam
How did the daddy react?: Pretty much the same way I did.
Telling the grandparents: How did your parents react?: They were all excited! I called my mom the day after I cheated and told her because I couldn't wait until we had the official blood test! How did his parents react?: They were excited as well!
How often do they call to check on you?: Not very often. Usually we are calling them with updates when we go to the doctor. About the pregnancy: When is your due date?: November 30th. How far along are you right now?: 7 weeks. Have you had an ultra sound?: Yes! Have you heard the heartbeat?: Yes! Sex of the baby: Don't know yet. I think it is a boy and Adam thinks it is a girl. What do you want. Boy or Girl?: I would be fine with either but it would be fun to add a boy to the cousins! Are you happy with what you are having?: N/A
About the birth: Who is going to be with you?: My hubs and possibly mom.
Are you going to video tape it?: Maybe but only stuff from the top nothing down below!
Natural or medicated?: Probably medicated.
Do you think you will have a c-section?: Possibly!
Do you think you will cry when you first hold your baby?: Oh my gosh, yes! This has been a roller coaster for us and it was worth the wait but once that baby is here I am sure I will be a bawl baby with it.
Do you know what you will say to the baby when you first hold it?: Hi! I love you! Or it might be an incoherent babble of crying.
Are you scared about the labor?: Not yet. Maybe once it gets closer.
Names: Do you have a name picked out?: We sure do!
Is your baby going to be named after anyone?: It will have Adam's initials and if it is a boy he will have his middle name.
Did the daddy help pick the name?: He picked the boys name. I picked the girls name.
Other random questions:Where was your baby conceived?: In the doctor's office. It was super romantic. ;) Have you felt the baby move?: No, it is still too early. The baby is the size of a blueberry.
What was your first symptom?: Nausea.
What is the baby's room theme?: Forest animals.
Are you ready to be a mommy?: I think so! =) As ready as I'll ever be!
What do you think the baby will be a "daddys girl/boy" or a "mommys girl/boy"?: Not sure.
There it is folks! Our baby!!! You can't really see it in this picture because it is only the size of a grain of rice! Pretty crazy huh? That little grain of rice has a little heart beat that was 112 beats per minute! This ultrasound made it feel more real even though I have been nauseous and exhausted for 2 weeks now! It was so cute to see how excited Adam was after seeing it on the screen! He hasn't felt like it was real. All he's dealt with is me complaining and asking for random food items! We are thrilled that we get to be parents to this little one! =)
Adam's brother, Curtis got married on Tuesday to a wonderful girl named, Emily. It was a great day! They got married in the Salt Lake Temple and it was the first temple wedding I have been to other than my own. Then, we had a wonderful lunch at the Joseph Smith Memorial Building. It was fun getting to know some of Emily's family. Later that night, we went to Provo for their reception which was beautiful. It was so nice to hang out with a lot of the family and meet some new people. Here are some pictures from the temple.
This is the letter I wrote to our baby after I cheated and found out I was pregnant.
Dear Baby Soderborg,
Today I found out that you are actually in my belly. The last several weeks I wasn't sure if what I was feeling was you or if it was my imagination. We are supposed to have my blood drawn on Tuesday to find out the results but today I was cramping and I couldn't take it anymore. Two weeks is too long to wait and I have been driving myself crazy so I decided to take a pregnancy test. When I saw the word PREGNANT, I almost died! I yelled at your dad that the test said I was pregnant and he looked at me really shocked. I told him what I did and that I couldn't take it anymore.
Right now you are a twinkle in our eyes but we are so excited to have you as a part of our lives. We will love you and cherish every moment we get to be with you! You have been worth the wait! I hope that on Tuesday we still get a positive and in 9 months you will be a part of our family. You don't know it yet but so many people already love you and are so excited for you.
I wish that I could tell someone so that is why I am writing this blog! The emotion is overwhelming and I am so excited to be creating a life. Depending on what the outcome is on Tuesday, we are going to reveal the news on Thursday to your grandparents, aunts and uncles, and cousins.
Sorry for the delay in announcing how our IVF cycle!!! It just doesn't feel real some times but we are pregnant!!! We are so excited and feel so blessed to be expecting a wonderful child. I have an ultrasound next week to make sure everything is going ok.
So far I have been nauseous and tired all the time. I am also super hormonal. Haha. I am just so amazed that even though the baby is so small it can have such an effect on me already!!
We could not be more thankful for all the prayers and well wishes from all of our family and our friends! Thank you so much for being our support through this time!