End of 2012

The end of the year was busy here in the Soderborg house! Adam and I celebrated out 3rd anniversary on the 6th of November! Adam took me to a beautiful restaurant up Millcreek Canyon. I didn't know or couldn't pronounce half of the stuff on the menu! It was delicious though!

Then was Thanksgiving and my birthday! I turned the ripe old age of 26! We spent Thanksgiving with my parents this year! I also had to work on Thanksgiving in Ogden. Then, Friday was my birthday! My mom and I went Black Friday shopping. I had a blast minus getting up so early but we got some fun stuff which was mostly for Adam! 

Adam spoiled me for my birthday! I got a present every day for 5 days! 

Foot massager

Two turtle gloves (he is really proud of this!)

Tom's

Just Dance 4

This is a picture his friend, Aaron drew of us and it is in a frame!

It was a really good birthday! =)

December was a blast too! We did some fun things around the valley! I will just show you in pictures!

Some of them are out of order but oh well! It was a blast! We spent this year's Christmas at Adam's parents house and it was a fun filled Christmas! =) The one thing that made this year special was that my sister-in-law, Catherine, brother-in-law, Alex and niece, Madeleine were able to come in to town! Oh the perks of them living closer!! We woke up on Christmas morning and sang the wonderful Soderborg Christmas song and then opened presents all morning! Mostly it was the little girls opening presents! Then, we got ready and went to The Ronald McDonald House and made lunch for the families that had to be away from home on Christmas. It was so much fun. 

Now we are in 2013! I can't believe it! There are going to be a lot of life changing things going on in our household! We are starting a new cycle of IVF in the next month. I am starting new hours at McKay. We might move some time in the next year. Adam is in school and working. I am excited for this year and what it will bring. Hope you all have a wonderful 2013! =)

Better news

Today was our "post" IVF appointment and I was really nervous about what they were going to say. I was so nervous that I didn't sleep much last night. But let me tell you what a relief this appointment was. Our doctor is so wonderful and understanding and optimistic. I don't know what we'd do without his support and compassion. He explained to us that there is nothing wrong with me that they know of. They think they might have just gotten the dosage of drugs wrong. They didn't want to overstimulate me so they gave me the lowest dose they could.

He also explained that they didn't want to proceed with the procedure because it would have cut our chances in half of getting pregnant. That would have been 60% to 30%! He said it wasn't impossible but they wanted to give me the best chance possible. We talked about proceeding with another cycle and upping the doses of medication which I am not looking forward to at all. I think the best news I heard was that I don't have to take Metformin this time!!! ;) Woot!

Actually, the best news that we got was that we can start again in the next couple of months. I will have to have my period in December and then we can start with birth control and so on. We are excited to give this another shot and hopefully this time my ovaries don't give up or give too much.

The one thing I am worried about is that we might lose our grant. We are still within the timeframe but we don't know if they will pay again for restarting. Please keep your fingers, toes, and whatever else you can crossed that they will continue to pay.

I can't tell you how much all your support has meant to me in the last couple weeks. It has really been a struggle for me to wrap my head around all of this. I wish that this appointment had been earlier so I would have had a little more comfort but I can't even explain how much compassion and love I have felt from my husband, my friends and family. It was just so amazing and I am happy to have you all as a part of our journey.

Anyway...that's all for now. Hope everyone has a safe and fun Halloween! Here are some pictures from October:

Well...

The last week has been laced with ultrasounds and blood draws. We were getting closer and closer to making an appointment for the retrieval. I even have awesome circles on my back side for more injections. Today was supposed to be the day that we scheduled our retrieval so we did an ultrasound and checked an estrogen level. The doctor wanted to make sure my estrogen was still going up which it has been all week. She has said they wanted it to be 200 for each egg. At approximately 11:00 am I got a phone call from the doctor (usually it is a nurse). She said that she had bad news. Not what I expected to hear. She told me that my estrogen level had dropped by more than half. It had been over 1,000 yesterday and was only 490 today. I was crying quite a bit by now and can't really remember all that she said but she thinks that my ovaries got tired and gave up. She said that maybe if they had done more of the Repronex it might have helped. They were worried about overstimulating me so they didn't want to do a lot of Repronex. 

The next step for us is to make an appointment with our doctor and figure out what our options are. I think they will change my drugs a little bit but I have no idea when we will be able to restart everything over again. I am kind of apprehensive about it because I don't like these injections especially the Repronex. I want to have babies and I want them to be Adam's so I know I can't give up on this option yet. I don't understand all of this yet and why this happened. I know God has a plan but it is not very clear to me. I hope He will make it known to me soon. I was hoping that we were done with set backs but I guess I shouldn't have been too surprised because that is all this process has been is set backs.

Anyway...I am having a hard time with this and not sure how to deal with it because I have never gone through anything like this. I really appreciate all my family and friends and their kind words. I love you all so much. I especially couldn't do this without my hubby. He has been so good to me and has been my rock. I couldn't ask for a better partner to go through this with. I will keep you all updated when we find out more information. Thanks.

New injections

Today I started on two more injections and decreased the amount of Lupron I've been taking. I've been taking the Lupron since 9/23. The Lupron hasn't been too bad because I was able to find a position that doesn't hurt and my husband has been giving me most of the injections. I am also still on Metformin.

Here are some descriptions of what the medication is for.


Leuprolide Acetate (Lupron): While it is important to stimulate several eggs to mature, it is equally important to prevent the release, or ovulation, of the eggs prior to the egg retrieval. Leuprolide Acetate is administered to prevent ovulation and to increase the number of eggs that are retrieved from the ovaries.

 Gonadotropins (Gonal F, Follistim, Bravelle, Repronex and Menopur): These are highly purified preparations of FSH or LH or both and are also administered as a series of subcutaneous injections in the lower abdomen. The gonadotropins stimulate the growth and maturation of the eggs. Side effects include ovarian discomfort, abdominal bloating, ovarian cysts and multiple pregnancies in 10-50% of women.

Luckily, the Repronex is only for 3 days because it is terrible and it hurts! I can't believe that next week we will FINALLY be doing the actual IVF. We have an ultrasound next Wednesday that will determine what day they will do the retrieval and 5 days after that they will do the transfer! It has been such a wild ride and hopefully it will get more wild if I get pregnant! =)

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Hospital 2012

Adam was admitted to the hospital on the 14th. He wasn't feeling good at the beginning of the week and luckily had an appointment that Friday. Usually when he gets admitted I have a hard time with it because it messes with plans and life in general. I feel like this time was different. It was an answer to many questions I had about why our IVF cycle kept getting pushed back. If we did it when originally planned to do it the second time then he would have been in the hospital. Imagine that. I am thankful to have received an answer. I am also glad that he will most likely be healthy for the holidays. He's been coming in every 3 months lately so we'll have to see.

IVF update: I started my Lupron injections on Sunday. So far I have not had any side effects but a friend of mine said when she took it the side effects showed up in the second week. Soon I will stop taking the birth control. Then in the beginning of October, I will have another ultrasound. That is all we have scheduled for now. I will try and update on how things are going. Please keep us in your thoughts and prayers.

The Utes won against BYU a couple weeks ago! Wahoo! It was a good game and I was really worried that they weren't going to win. A cool thing that happened while we've been here is that Adam got to meet the current starting quarterback of the Utes! One of Adam's respiratory therapists happens to be his girlfriend and asked him to come up and visit him. I was at the Train concert which was totally worth missing meeting him but I was still bummed I wasn't here. But it was really sweet that he came up here and talk to Adam. Unfortunately, the Utes didn't do too well this last week against Arizona State. I hope they do better against USC!

Let's see, what else has happened. Oh..one of my friends passed away this week. His name is Aaron and he has CF. I meet him when I started working at the Utes and we became friends. He was one of the sweetest people I have meet. I will miss him so much. I hope that they find a cure for this disease. Breathe easy my friend.

We went to Capitol Reef at the beginning of September. I went down with Adam's parents because Adam was SUPPOSED to be working that weekend. He asked if he could have that Saturday off to come down and surprise everyone. We had a blast with his family like always!

Capitol Reef

Having fun with my friend who is a BYU fan.

Carlos

Train concert

Thankful

One of my coworkers posted a status this morning and said think of 10 things you are thankful for and find ways to show them appreciation! I think with my new motto this would be a great thing to do.

 10 things I am thankful for:

1. God.
-I think I could pray more and read my scriptures.
2. My husband.
-Be a good wife and spend all the time I can with him.
3. My wonderful friends and family.
-I feel like I need to be more attentive to my friends/family. I want to try and spend more time with them or at least call or text them to make sure everything is going ok.
4. The autumn season is upon us.
-Fall is my favorite season and I am not sure how to show it appreciation.
5. My ability to work and make money for my family.
-I think I am going to not complain about work as much and try to be a better employee.
6. My health (although it has kind of been terrible lately).
-Eat healthier and exercise more often.
7. My coworkers.
-Be a good coworker and be someone who is fun and pleasant to work with.
8. Utah football.
-I think I show them appreciation by watching or going to the games and cheering until I have no voice! =)
9. Delicious food.
-Eat it! =)
10. The possibility that we can have children through IVF.
-Be grateful for the people who have helped us through this journey. Infertility is so hard. I never imagined it to be this hard and if you haven't dealt with inferility it is hard to know what someone is going through. I am so thankful to know people who have gone through it or are going through it with me. I need to show them appreciation because it takes a really strong person to deal with this process.

There are so many things to be thankful for and I think some times I get caught up in the terrible things that are going on. I hope that this list will be a reminder for me that there are so many more wonderful things to think about. I hope you will all take a minute to think about 10 things you are thankful for and how we can show those people or things our appreciation.