"Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts."
I already posted something earlier but this has just been on my mind the past week or so. I have been thinking about the changes I have made in my life in the past year and a half. Because some of the changes I have made, I have gained new friends, lost old friends, and some of my friendships have been strengthened. I know the changes I have made have shocked a lot of people. Believe me it shocked me too. But you have to understand I was completely unhappy with my life and something had to change. I was lost and had no path to follow. It was the worst feeling. I was spiraling to a very bad place that I didn't want to be in. And yes, converting to the LDS religion was the only thing that could make me happy. I know people don't agree with the religion. I didn't when I moved here but I didn't know the truth about it until I actually spent many sleepless nights researching it. There are feelings I have felt that I can't explain when I am at church or in the temple. But it is the best feeling I have ever felt in my life. It puts me in a happy place and at peace. I can't wait to get my endowments and get sealed to Adam. I guess it just upsets me a little that people can't accept my decision. But then again I guess if they can't then they weren't as good of friends as I thought.
Adam wasn't the reason I converted! (I hear things. I know that is why a lot of people think I did it. Please ask me instead of assuming.) It may look that way but I think I know my reasons and so do most people that have asked me.
I just want to thank the people who have stuck with me through this process. It has been a blessing. I don't think I am much different. Maybe someone can correct me on this but I do a lot of the same stuff I used to with some modifications.
I am still Christine and I'd like people to know that. I am just a better, happier version of myself with a different religion.
I just needed to vent for a minute. Thanks for listening.