Monday, September 27, 2010

Changes


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Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts."



I already posted something earlier but this has just been on my mind the past week or so. I have been thinking about the changes I have made in my life in the past year and a half. Because some of the changes I have made, I have gained new friends, lost old friends, and some of my friendships have been strengthened. I know the changes I have made have shocked a lot of people. Believe me it shocked me too. But you have to understand I was completely unhappy with my life and something had to change. I was lost and had no path to follow. It was the worst feeling. I was spiraling to a very bad place that I didn't want to be in. And yes, converting to the LDS religion was the only thing that could make me happy. I know people don't agree with the religion. I didn't when I moved here but I didn't know the truth about it until I actually spent many sleepless nights researching it. There are feelings I have felt that I can't explain when I am at church or in the temple. But it is the best feeling I have ever felt in my life. It puts me in a happy place and at peace. I can't wait to get my endowments and get sealed to Adam. I guess it just upsets me a little that people can't accept my decision. But then again I guess if they can't then they weren't as good of friends as I thought.
Adam wasn't the reason I converted! (I hear things. I know that is why a lot of people think I did it. Please ask me instead of assuming.) It may look that way but I think I know my reasons and so do most people that have asked me. 
I just want to thank the people who have stuck with me through this process. It has been a blessing. I don't think I am much different. Maybe someone can correct me on this but I do a lot of the same stuff I used to with some modifications. 


I am still Christine and I'd like people to know that. I am just a better, happier version of myself with a different religion.  




I just needed to vent for a minute. Thanks for listening.

5 comments:

NikkiPea said...

for various reasons, thank you for posting this. =)

Catherine said...

Love you, Christine!

Jessica said...

I'm glad you are happy! That's what life is all about!Aren't eternal families the best?!

Paula Soderborg said...

We loved you before you changed your religion and we love you now. What we love about you has not changed. You just brought all those good things to us. Please remember you have people around you to give you strength when things are hard.

firecracker said...

Best post ever! Love ya!

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